what forgiveness feels like
Rain washes away debris
revealing a clear open sky
in the depths of my heart
spirituality
I left my demons by the fire
it diminished gently
overlapping skies, ripples of
light shifting into rainfall
the impenetrable gray
I ripped pages out of my heart
burned philosophy by the book
stories that made my spirit lame
watching,
those diabolical words break,
breaking
whispers turning into ash
turning
I left my demons by the fire
for the rain
and its cascade
Fall,
for you are ripe
with all that you are
fall, into place
into your heart
into Destiny
Paradox
Out of the state of being paradoxical, we try to make sense of ourselves, to put together a narrative that we can verbalize, but human nature is a paradox, logic and heart is a paradox, the Self and our Desires is a paradox. Ultimately they are all parts of ourselves that make us who we are, different spaces that we inhabit depending on the given moment and circumstance.
these are codes I slowly learn
the strands of my DNA
softly dictates
is this who
I really am?
some songs are sung
when love scurries
towards the edge
a fist fails to catch the wind
the cliff-bound, faraway cries
drowns in itself as it
tugs
at the laughing sky–I look up
to meet the night’s eyes
tears soft as a lonely feather
fall like kisses on my cheek
the blur of starlight,
though fractured
by life’s lecture
once again
chooses to be brighter–and know that
though my throat dries, parched
from the pale laborious singing
that uses me up sometimes
it anchors me down
like gravity anchors me
anchors me down
sustains a breath, so true
a thriving beat grouped in twos
in, out; in, out
and in
a song in reverse,
heard or unheard
it sings its way back
back
back to my starlit soul
when you close your eyes
when your eyelashes
sleep at the bottom
of your eyes like caterpillars
are you waiting for time to pass by
are you trying to catch it by its tail
are you hoping for truth
to open its petals like a blossoming flower
are you dreaming so you can be
awake, so you can be alive?
my friend, don’t waste a single second
each one of your breath is worth more
than any promised future moment–
is your heart not beating
is it not overflowing with the stuff of life
are you not present in your body
are you not real
are you not a human
being–
when you close your eyes
do you not exist
in this very moment?
Lightbringer
want to be a lantern
that lights up
the path
want to be a fire
that burns
in the dark
want to be the star
that points
to the North
want to be the sun
that nourishes
the earth
want to be a glorious beat
that pulses through
the Heart of the Universe
and can I not wish
for a light that travels fair
and far
and can I not wish
for a world where light travels
faster and further
than the reach of the dark
and if by wishing I could undo
what has been done
then there would be no more nightmares
for in a blink of a heartbeat, they shall be gone
my heart was a cocoon
my heart was a cocoon
and wishes of better tomorrows
slept on cold heavy wings
this whole time I waited
but didn’t know I was ready
with each insight
each memory
I sank deeper
and deeper
into my Self
and found that I had been awake
my eyes wide open like a child’s
and as I saw the Truth
my fears fell away
and at that moment
I was light like a feather
and as I chose to Become
I was no longer astray
Eye of the Storm
shadows spin like a merry-go-around
eerie music washes over like a dreamless tide
overtaking my conscious like a perpetual nightmare
caught in the whirlwind of silent deception
they make those voices in your head sound so perfectly right
they make the screams in your heart tremble hard with fright
and though fears pass through me
like thunder and lightning
I choose to be in the eye of the storm
I choose to become the centre of gravity
as I hold myself down, as I hug myself to sleep
saying, here you are, I have found you
and I am sorry–for you are the one I choose
I will not let you go again
Somewhere Nowhere in My Kingdom 