the months keep sneaking up on me these days

the months keep sneaking
up on me these days;
I remember I used to be
wide eyed and slightly afraid.
that girl, however, is a lifetime

away

in the moments when I
forgot to breathe, just
for a second or two
I have to remind myself
the simple profundity
that exists within a single
rotation of breath

inhale, exhale
you only live once

inhale–

exhale.

You only live once

 

Advertisements

when you close your eyes

when your eyelashes
sleep at the bottom
of your eyes like caterpillars

are you waiting for time to pass by
are you trying to catch it by its tail
are you hoping for truth
to open its petals like a blossoming flower
are you dreaming so you can be
awake, so you can be alive?

my friend, don’t waste a single second
each one of your breath is worth more
than any promised future moment–
is your heart not beating
is it not overflowing with the stuff of life
are you not present in your body
are you not real
are you not a human
being–

when you close your eyes
do you not exist
in this very moment?

Lag

Have I been profoundly and efficiently caffeinated
so that I function with an accelerated mental capacity
in which time slows down as I speed up?

Have I attained a higher form of consciousness,
achieved some level of nirvana, gained some supernatural abilities
in which time slows down as I speed up?

Have I entered the crux and flux of space-time
cracked the cosmic egg filled with mystical secrets
in which time slows down as I speed up?

OR, is it just that
my internet connection is goddamn

LAGGING

Obligatory New Year Poem

 Happy New Year, everybody!

This year, I vow to miscount every second,
every minute, every hour, every day,
until time matters no longer,
until happiness is all I measure

This year, I vow to love fiercer and deeper,
every minute, every hour, every day,
until every moment is a moment of realness
until every action stands for itself

This year, I subject myself to rejuvenation,
every minute, every hour, every day,
until each breath makes and wakes me anew
until each heartbeat only beats true

This year, I vow to dream by living,
every minute, every hour, every day,
until past and future are nowhere to be found
until words of regret no longer abound.

Gravity

In darkness and vacuum,
every breath you draw
substantiates the truth
that you tell; time drones
away with every heartbeat,
a clock you cannot defeat;
perhaps, only gravity
can save you now
only gravity
can liberate you
stop you from spinning
out of control
stop you from spinning
out of reach and
stop, stop you
from spinning
out
of this
world