For years I have struggled from
the indispensability of your words and
this endless resistance has left me
deranged, breathless in a perpetual vertigo.
As I immerse myself in your
indisputable wisdom, I am awash with the
light from your tear-spilled eyes that are
shining with dreams that I used to dream
You stare at me, unblinking, with profound
intention, like a sad, musing raven,
like an unexpected judgement.
I turn away with a jolt of heartache,
And the black inertia, with its venomous teeth,
devours me from the inside.
I have no choice but to rage
with every cell of my being
to pursue a life that does not involve
your innocence and your love
so I can prevent you from being stained
by the dark parasites living deep
down inside the shadows of my soul.
So I tread on glassy roads and I
tremble from the steps that I take
and I break
away from your angellic wings
your beautiful vulnerability
and seek desperately a place
a place where I will never be found
to keep you safe.